I tell people how I sabotaged my business, but I don’t usually tell them WHY I was doing it.
As I write my 2nd book, I’ve decided to start talking about how I was stuck in a pattern of debt and struggle because a part of me didn’t believe I was worthy of money, success and love.
There’s a part of me that believes that I’m not good enough or worthy enough to have all of the intentions I want. This part of me started when I was a kid and my dad was addicted to crack.
I always wanted to be a part of a big TeleSummit with other top names in the industry, but I knew they had these pesky requirements about list size. I never asked or applied to be on a TeleSummit because I didn’t think my list was big enough.
A voice in my head always said, “Let’s wait. I need 10,000 more people on my list and then all the TeleSummits will be begging to have me speak.”
Surprise surprise! That was actually a self-sabotaging thought dressed up as the truth. Size only matters in your mind!
I just hired a team to help me with my business and I just realized that I set them up for failure.
My parents always told me, “If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself.” Society taught me that “real men don’t need help and can do anything they want on their own. Support is for wusses.” A part of me still believes that so I set my team up for failure so that my past beliefs would still be true for me.
This is a perfect example of how self-sabotage can fool you and make itself look really noble!
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For a long time, I was always saying, “When I make more money, I’ll travel a lot. I’ll be free to buy the things I want. I’ll live on the beach, eat the expensive, organic version of everything, and be happy.”
For 31 years that was just a dream that I asked for, believed I had, and NEVER allowed myself to receive.
I got frustrated following what I understood to be true about the laws of attraction and acting as if I had everything I wanted.
It felt like total BULLshit to a part of me.